My Jerry Springer marriage

Closing our first date, my ex-wife told me that I was a step up from her current boyfriend. We had talked for a week prior to the date and she never mentioned a boyfriend. I was used to hand me downs and did not think I deserved any better, so I opted to stay. I did not listen to that voice inside and run away.

I got her out of debt and married her. I got us a house. I was working my butt off. She made fun of me because I had a name tag on my work attire. Her sisters, brother, and brothers-in-law were doctors, computer experts, and other upwardly mobile workers. So I went to college to get a degree in business. And kept my 90 Hour Work Week.

She woke me up one morning crying. I asked what was the matter. She said, and I quote, ""I'm sorry. I'm pregnant. I did not mean to." I did not understand those words until years later when she told me that my son was not my biological son. Again, I did not listen to those voices and run away. Three times in the next 6 years you reminded me that he was not my biological son. I did not care. I loved him like he was mine. And I still do.

She admitted to me that she was a sex addict and had slept with 16 guys since we got married. She said some people do not steal for the monetary value but for the thrill of getting away with it. She said that's why she was cheating on me. The thrill of wondering if I would catch her made the sex better. The proverbial forbidden fruit.

And every day she told me she loved me. Every year she bought me a card and told me she loved me. All the while, she was having affairs. 11 years of lies, deceit,  and using her new knowledge of psychology to break me down. I will never trust anyone again. I will never open up to anyone ever again.

I asked her to stop. She said no. She was in love with her current fling. This is the Jerry Springer cherry on top. He was in his forties and married. He was cheating on his wife with a 17 year old that was married to a soldier in Indiana. At the same time he was cheating on his wife with my wife. My ex-wife even posed as a bridesmaid when the 40 year old man married to 17 year old girl.

She committed perjury four or five times in the divorce trial, claiming that she had no relationship with the man she is married to now. Her student of psychology. If there was ever a female narcissist, she is one. And so is her boy toy.

And they continue to lie about it to this day. Because she was his supervisor in studying Clinical Psychology and they would both lose their licenses. Their supervisor even warned them to be careful. But psychology doesn't care about adultery. Psychology is the liberal arts of placing the blame on others. 

And people wonder why I want nothing to do with Humanity anymore.

All of her letters, notes and flirtatious emails with her lover will be included in my book.

All I wanted was my son. Blood or not, he was my son. Blood or not, he is my son.