Wasted

30 years ago I made a mistake by telling my ex-wife, girlfriend at the time, that she did not need Prozac. At that point, she had only cheated on me once by giving her ex-boyfriend a "sympathy" goodbye sex session. Whatever the hell that means.

Time and again, I told her she did not need such drugs as Prozac, all she needed was someone that cared about her and would listen to her. 

She went from doped up and gullible to her ex to wild, free and gullible to any man in the world. She said she was "redefining" and "reinventing"  herself and that I should respect that or leave. I should have left. I should have walked away before the other 16 lovers came into her life. I knew what was going on, but did not want to fail in life again, and she knew it. So I took it in stride. Fifteen years. The time wasn't wasted, but my love was.

Blah

Decided to take a night off from sobriety. Still got it. 8 pints. Boom.  Fuck sobriety. Every night I'm awakened by the sound of Byron screaming, "Daddy, help me!" 

I want to scream. I want to cry. But I can't. I just sit there and sweat. I grab my bottle of scotch, take a few swigs, and pass out again. I detested my ex-wife for being an alcoholic and now I am one.

Happy birthday, Jezebel

This day used to mean something to me. It was a special day. I always look forward to celebrating. Thirteen years. Then, I found out it was an illusion. She was using me to create her personal fantasy. 

I did not know what a narcissist was until I met her. Everything was always about her. She was physically and mentally abusive, but blamed it on me. Her dreams subdued mine. She thought her family was better than mine, even though she hated her family. But they were rich. It was always her parents' house for Christmas. It was her archaic religion over mine. I had to do this, and I had to do that, or I was out. I should have left long ago but I had hope. 

She told me she couldn't wait for her parents to die, so she could get her inheritance, just as many times as she told me that Byron was not my son. All I did was love her. All I got in return was her rage.

For 16 years, I've taken a shot of Crown Royal on this day. Pretending it was a bullet. I quit drinking, because my liver is almost gone and my kidneys are shot. Today, I will take a shot to prune juice and leave a pile in memory of her. Happy birthday Jezebel. 

She Gets Nothing

They say no one born wishes they were a victim of abortion. I do. My family was fine but the others around me made me a monster. My family had to hide from my rage. I never told them the things that went on at school. The physical and mental assault, the groomung, the blackmail, the coercion, the SA. I tried to drown myself when I was 9 and again, at 45. I overdosed at 43, and would have made it if a nosy ass cop had not thought I flipped him off. I fucking hate humanity. There is nothing humane about it. I want to fight demons and monsters. I need an equal to battle. Humans are weak. They get bent out of shape over words and skin color. I'm looking forward to the day...

I want people to leave me the fuck alone. Stop reaching out or I will sleep sooner than expected. I found a hole to exist. I will never live again. I am content for the time being.

I gave away all of my money. The ex-wife's family is rich. I'm leaving nothing for her to try and come after. I gave away $350K. I've drank away $100K. Fuck that bitch. 

The next person that emails me or calls me will be responsible for my death.

Most of my monsters have been destroyed. All but one are dead. One died 52 years ago. One died in Fort Leavenworth, Kansas. One died in prison in Colorado. One died in prison in Texas. One died on the streets of Phoenix, Arizona. The last one lives in Los Angeles, California. I finally found him. Soon, all of my demons will be gone.

Leave me the fuck alone

I asked nicely. Then I asked not so nice. Now I'm demanding: leave me the fuck alone! My ex wife fucked my friends. The boy that I thought was my son hates me. He told me to fuck off and die. I want to be left alone. I don't give a fuck about anything or anybody. I am existing until I finish my book. If anyone tries to contact me again, the book will remain unfinished. I am not afraid to die. I will not fail next time. Leave me the fuck alone. 

IMMIGRATION

Key U.S. Code (USC) sections in Title 8 governing illegal immigration include 8 U.S.C. § 1325 (improper entry), 8 U.S.C. § 1326 (illegal re-entry), and 8 U.S.C. § 1324 (bringing in/harboring). These laws criminalize unlawful entry, with penalties ranging from fines to imprisonment, particularly for repeat offenders or those assisting illegal entry. 

Core USC Sections Addressing Illegal Immigration

8 U.S.C. § 1325 (Improper Entry by Alien): Criminalizes entering the U.S. at unauthorized times or places, eluding examination, or using fraudulent documents.

Penalties: Fines and/or up to 6 months in federal prison for the first offense; up to 2 years for subsequent offenses.

8 U.S.C. § 1326 (Reentry of Removed Aliens): Makes it a felony for any alien previously deported or removed to re-enter, attempt to re-enter, or be found in the U.S. without authorization.

Penalties: Fines and/or up to 2 years in prison (or higher if the original removal was due to criminal conviction).

8 U.S.C. § 1324 (Bringing in and Harboring Certain Aliens): Prohibits smuggling, transporting, or harboring individuals known to be in the U.S. illegally.

8 U.S.C. § 1324a (Unlawful Employment of Aliens): Prohibits employers from knowingly hiring unauthorized workers and mandates civil penalties for violations. 

Liberals are stupid

I think it's funny how liberals and some republicans keep complaining that Trump is not doing what he promised. Y'all are stupid. He did drain the swamp and now the monsters are roaming around in the open committing their atrocities and thinking they are above the law. 

He let them cheat in 2020 and 2022, so he could prove how corrupt the deep state was. It worked.

Furthermore, do you remember being a kid and your best friend was getting ready to move? Your friend's dad saying they would leave about noon. But you and your friend caused so much havoc that you distracted his father from getting things done and they did not leave until midnight. You and your best friend were happy for a few more hours together, but the change was inevitable. That's exactly what liberals are doing. Raising hell, so Trump can't get his tasks completed. Protests and riots are just distractions to take society's focus away from the corruption of the Democrats.

For the love of God, let him work for us.