Right here, right now

Life doesn't suck. Days suck, weeks suck, and sometimes months suck, but life in general is OK. I had $7K set aside for a McDonald's reunion in BC/S, Texas. Also, to see my friends in Giddings and Wharton. And get together with a few friends from Round Rock/Austin to go to the Sherwood Forest Renaissance Festival in McDade.

The universe saw things differently. $8K later, and I still don't know if I'm going to get 100% of my hearing back.

And I had to put off my new job for a while. That's all right. Shit happens but my shovel is bigger than the pile.

This is why I don't make plans very often. I would rather surprise my friends than let them down. I guess we will try again, next year.

Loss of a Child

Be it by divorce, kidnapping, human trafficking, or death. The emptiness is a void that eats at your soul every ticking second of every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year for the rest of your life. You see the child everywhere, but nowhere. You hear the child crying for help in your dreams, only to wake up to the torment of emptiness. Your mind devours your heart and soul until you become an empty shell. You spend the rest of your life running away. Chasing down one bad decision after another. Hoping the next one will be the last. Tired. Seeking respite from the haunting voices in the wind. Will it ever end? Will death bring peace or amplify the abysmal darkness?

The Myth from Her Lips (revised)

You should have let me go. No early morning phone call. No coffee the morning after. 

You should have let me go. I closed the past. You opened the future. You shuffled the cards of fate and denied destiny. You read the future you desired. 

You should have let me go. No choreographed conversation from behind a mask. No promise of Halcyon days. The truths of summers' past smolder in the ash of lies. The phoenix shall rise only to fall.

You should have let me go. Our love was magic and should have remained a memory. 

Years ago I gave you a conscience. Today you expect me to clear that conscience, and absolve you of your guilt.

I do not blame you for yesterday, but I do hold you accountable for today.

Today is tomorrow's yesterday. All will be forgiven in time. But, is time not an illusion, just like your guilt. I let it go, you need to let it go. All dissipates but my love will always remain.

I should now let your memory go. Goodbye...

Let Them Be Innocent

I don't give a flying fuck if you are part of a cult of intergalactic unicorns with 737 different gender identities. If you are an adult, you can make believe and lie to yourself all day long, but do not poison our children with this shit. Pedophiles do not belong telling children what to think or do with their bodies. 

If you're too stupid to see that this is also about pharmaceutical companies making money from lifelong patients, you are part of the problem. 

I asked a neurosurgeon why a child could not be a brain surgeon. She said, "because the child does not understand the complexities of the brain. The 'neurological magic' that keeps the body going. The line between real science and science fiction is an indestructible barrier in the discipline of human physiology." Hmmmmm...

I asked another scientific colleague of mine if children could be biologists. He chuckled a little and said no. "A child's mind is not developed enough to understand the intricacies of genetics or able to comprehend the unfathomable outcome of the smallest of manipulations." Hmmmm...

Make believe and reality are separate entities. Imagination is important until it becomes the twisted driving force of manipulation and perversion of toddlers.  Let them be cowboys. Let them be Indians. Let them be pirates. Let them be dragons. Let them be heroes. Let them be villains. But most of all, let them be innocent.

Random thought

Keep chasing the dream, never settle in a lesser version of it. It's about the journey not the destination. There is an old Chinese adage that says "may all of your dreams come true but one." That one unfulfilled dream will give you reason to continue. Once all of your dreams come true, you just exist, you do not live. Dream. Inspire. 

Today's Truth

We are who we are because of who we were. Never regret your past. I have done things, and I have not done things. I would not change any of it. I'm glad I failed as an athlete and musician. I was humbled. I've slept under a bridge and eaten from a soup kitchen , I've sipped a martini in a Manhattan high rise while eating lobster. 

Now I feed the homeless and help the hopeless. I understand.  We are here to help each other. Humanity is one. The only label you should wear is that of a human.

Yesterday is history and tomorrow is a mystery.

The End

Rather than being disillusioned by the raw and bitter truth of reality, we confuse ourselves with the intoxicating hope that every falling star is a sign from the heavens. We have come to accept that self-deceit is more comfortable than the chance of inspiration's end.

We are lost in time. No longer do the whispered enchantments echo from the halls of the cathedral of souls. No one hears the ancient songs because no one listens. The celestial choir is silent. Faith sacrificed for a moment of pleasure. I yearned for more.

I wanted to believe in a love that rivaled the magic in the writings of the literary giants of the past. I wanted to be consumed by the fires of that passion. I wanted to infuse those emotional ashes into my inkwell and share them with the world. I offered my heart...

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Written: 04/02/18 DBC